New Years and New Beginnings

Ok, so I am a little late with my New Years post...but Happy New Years to everyone anyways...

This year, for me, is going to be a year of learning and teaching...I think...I know that I need to be teachable but I also know that people can and will learn from me as well...

With everything that we have gone through at the end of last year, I have learned so much about myself. I have learned that I can be vocal and 'proactive', I have learned that I do have help to offer others, I have learned that I am able to have trust and faith in God and His words. I think these are valuable lessons and I am still growing in each of these areas.

Something that I have experienced, now that we are home, and are getting out and about, is that people stare.

Never noticed it before, really...and it makes me think about how often I have just stared and not asked questions, or how my kids have stared and maybe asked questions, but I have told them to be quiet...being honest here...

I am learning that Faith, or anyone else who is 'different', are not the ones with the problems, but it is the people who are too scared to ask. When we ask questions, we learn...I am more then happy to answer anyones questions, or show people what Faith's tummy looks like. I think that is how we learn to not be afraid of certain situations and I think more people would be more then happy to talk...I could be wrong though...

I also know that my faith has been tested through everything, and even now it continues to be tested...I know that I need to continually refresh myself if I am going to be able to remain strong through the rest of this process and whatever else may come my way. A verse that spoke to me just a few days ago was

Nahum 1:7
God is good, a hiding place in tough times. He recognizes and welcomes anyone looking for help, No matter how desperate the trouble.

How awesome is that verse? It is in the middle of a chapter that talks about how God stands up to His enemies, He is going to wipe out Ninevah here, it talks of the storm clouds which are the dust that He shakes off His feet...

Then, right around the middle of the chapter, it says that God is good. It also says that He recognizes and welcomes people looking for help. So, that tells me that He sees my trouble, He knows exactly what I am going through. I still have to go to Him, He is not going to come to me uninvited...but when I invite Him I will be ready to hear and ready to learn more...

That's it for now...I gotta get ready to head out to the hospital with Faith today. She is having a swallowing study done and we are praying for great results...this will determine how far we cn go with a bottle...I will post either tonight or tomorrow about the test...

Just a Scripture

Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.


I am still quite upset about the mortgage thing. You would think that they would look over the last 8 years that we have been there an take all that into consideration. Oh well...

There are many different avenues we could go down right now. A mortgage broker, a second mortgage, another bank, financing at a new house...we need to talk with some people who know more about this then us.

Maybe we are just supposed to wait a bit longer. Maybe God didn't want us settling for a house that we would not be happy in after a few years. Maybe we are just not giving Him enough credit to know that He could provide the bigger place that we want. Who knows?

It seems silly to be upset about this, but I really am. There is more involved at this end, that I am choosing not to share here, and this is like the straw and the camel thing. I am just tired.

Anyhow, I am gonna run. Mr. Hockey was sick all night long and he is just coming upstairs now, so I am going to see how he holds down some food. I have found, now that we are eating better, that if we stray to the unhealthy stuff it really affects our body, in more ways then I want to share!!

Oh, yeah, and I weighed in yesterday for the biggest loser challenge I am in and I have lost 3 more pounds. I am slowly getting to my first goal, which is under 200lbs. My clothes are falling off of me already and I will need to get some new stuff soon...YAY!!